One of my Breasties had her final reconstruction surgery 4 weeks ago. Her surgery went well and she has been healing and living life. Until she woke up early Saturday morning feeling pain in her cancer side. She ended up in the ER with an infection which caused her to have heavy antibiotics pumped into her through an IV and fight for her life. Who would think? She's been walking around living life cancer free happy to be alive. I pray the medications work and she doesn't need surgery and she can get home to her family. My reconstruction surgery on my cancer side was 3 weeks ago....Reality check!
Another one of my Breasties was cancer free 6 months ago. Then some headaches came on, some tests were done resulting in the cancer returning and spreading to her brain. She fought hard for those 6 months before it took over her. She was only 38, has a husband and 3 year old son. My heart feels heavy for her family. My deepest condolences to her husband,son and family. I pray for them daily. I'm "cancer free" and 37. Reality check!
Cancer is an ongoing fight we fighters and thrivers battle everyday. I often hear people saying you are nearing the end of your journey. This journey doesn't end, it just eases up. I am cancer free. But cancer will forever fight me, everyday. And I never know when it will hit me harder and make me have to fight harder so I fight hard everyday. Reality check!!
I woke up very early today and couldn't sleep, thinking about cancer. It does this to me every now and then. I was thinking how easy it is to stop smelling the roses and how easy it is to forget what's really important. I also remembered cancer taught me to stop and smell every rose. I laid there in bed and rolled over to hold my husband and took in every part of the love and peace he brings. The rhythm of his breath, the way his back curves for my head to nestle in perfectly, the warmth from his body and how, even when sleeping, he recognizes I am there cuddling up to him and he cuddles back. As I lay there, I pray, thanking Jesus for all he's done for us, for bringing us together and keeping us together, knowing what's right for us. I lay there praying he never let anything bad happen to my luv. My husband too fights a never ending battle, MS. I enjoyed every second of it and every second of my morning, from the warmth of the shower, to feeding our kids and being sure to take in the ride to work and not think about what's ahead in my day. A woman rode my cars ass the entire way to work, 20 minutes, never bothered to pass me, just stayed right there on the bumper of my car. I wondered what she was thinking about. Whatever she was thinking about, she wasn't smelling the roses. I made sure I took in every second of my day today.
Never stop smelling the roses, stop and smell every rose. Live in the second of every second of the day. Take in what's around you. Absorb all the positive, the beauty, the peace and the love and let go of everything else. Stop and smell those roses!!