I didn't realize how much I'd care about how my foobs look. For the past year I have hated the way I look in the mirror. Scars all over always reminding me about the battle. I used to have great breasts but November of 2014 I chose to remove them. In my mind, I pictured walking out of the hospital with great new perky boobs. That's not what happened! I left with sadness and insecurities I never had. Scars all over my chest and stomach, foobs that looked nothing like boobs, and these plastic ports extruding out from under my "breasts" that hurt more than you'd think they would. My appearance in my eyes was crushed. After 8 months of living with these turtle shell looking things hanging off my chest, I had my 1st reconstructive surgery. I went under the knife thinking both turtle shells were being exchanged for implants only to wake up with only one expander swapped out. My surgeon was not comfortable swapping the right side because of the extensive radiation damage to the tissue we took from my stomach. I told my dad that morning he better be in the room standing over my surgeon making sure all went well. He must have known something that day. The turtle shell that was swapped out was even more unattractive than when it was an expander. It looked nothing like a breast. So for the next 4 months I had 2 foobs that looked nothing a like and nothing like breasts. I met again with my surgeon to talk about our next steps.
Tuesday, October 19, my nephews birthday who created my blog for me, I had surgery again. I have been waiting for this day to remove this plastic port under my other foob I've been living with for a year now. When we exchanged my expander on the left side, it didn't come out how I wanted (my surgeon and I are perfectionists and my breast surgeon didn't quite cut the way she should have) so we had more reconstruction work to do on the left. We were also finally swapping my turtle shell for an implant on the right side along with some needed reconstruction because of so much tissue damage from radiation. I woke up after surgery to the plan going accordingly, yay! Both sides were done and all seemed to go well.
Today, Friday, I finally unwrapped my package to see my goodies and so far I am pleased. I'm still swollen and uncomfortable but it feels so great to have symetricsl foobs that actually look like boobs again. I follow up with my surgeon in 2 weeks and hopefully that was my last surgery. We may need some touch ups though, we are perfectionists.
My support group continues to amaze and inspire me. My heart is so happy knowing so many family and friends think of me, say prayers for me and send positive vibes...thank you so much! Thank you to my support team at work making sure everything is covered so I can rest and recover without work stress. My luv and my mom take such good care of me during recovery, thank you for your unconditional love. I love you all xxoo
Tuesday, October 19, my nephews birthday who created my blog for me, I had surgery again. I have been waiting for this day to remove this plastic port under my other foob I've been living with for a year now. When we exchanged my expander on the left side, it didn't come out how I wanted (my surgeon and I are perfectionists and my breast surgeon didn't quite cut the way she should have) so we had more reconstruction work to do on the left. We were also finally swapping my turtle shell for an implant on the right side along with some needed reconstruction because of so much tissue damage from radiation. I woke up after surgery to the plan going accordingly, yay! Both sides were done and all seemed to go well.
Today, Friday, I finally unwrapped my package to see my goodies and so far I am pleased. I'm still swollen and uncomfortable but it feels so great to have symetricsl foobs that actually look like boobs again. I follow up with my surgeon in 2 weeks and hopefully that was my last surgery. We may need some touch ups though, we are perfectionists.
My support group continues to amaze and inspire me. My heart is so happy knowing so many family and friends think of me, say prayers for me and send positive vibes...thank you so much! Thank you to my support team at work making sure everything is covered so I can rest and recover without work stress. My luv and my mom take such good care of me during recovery, thank you for your unconditional love. I love you all xxoo